While I was bobbing around, I started to remember a game I used to play with my friends when I was a kid: Over or Under. It was a simple concept: before a wave reached us we all had to shout "Over" or "Under." And then we had to follow whichever way through the wave that we had called out - diving under it or bobbing over it - or risk being penalized by a seaweed necklace. Unless, of course, you were smacked in the face by a wave and came up with a red enough face that your friends felt the water had punished you enough and took pity on you...
Of course, me being eternally lost in thought about our moving issues, I started thinking about how life is a lot like that game. Most of the time you can predict which way through a wave of change is best and you can go that direction feeling sure of yourself and your choices. But sometimes you make the wrong prediction - like thinking that you think getting a job out of state is going to be fairly easy when it's not- and when you're trying to bob your way over a wave it suddenly comes crashing down on you. And you know that the instant you come out of the waves your friends will call you out on your inability to bob over the wave and throw some seaweed around your shoulders as a symbol of your failure to predict the future.
Thankfully my friends these days are adults. Adults who may see us sputtering for breaths between waves and might even take pity on us and say, "Dude, do you want to go boogie board instead?" as they hand us a board.
The point to this random ramble is this: I'm trying to remember that no matter how bad we have been at planning for our future after reacting to this wave of change, we will eventually come out on the other side of the wave. And as of a few hours after I posted my last blog post, an amazing person has showed up next to us with a boogie board.
(Yes, this is cryptic on purpose. No, I won't explain further until we have a concrete plan...)
But the important thing is: We have hope again!